Hello everyone, I hope you are doing well. I am quite confused about what happened during and after one of my meditations and have no idea whom to talk to about this. A week ago I started meditating regularly (every day) for a duration of about 30 minutes, lying still and listening to guided meditation. I don't know if this was the right way, but it made me feel very good. After a few days, with my eyes closed I noticed a silhouette of a circle that spread and shrank repeatedly, it was indigo-colored. Two days after this, I first felt tickling in my face, then arms and legs, until almost my whole body went numb. I was still aware to some point and could stop, but the only this I could really focus on was my breathing. Following this, a wave of pleasure rising from the bottom of my stomach (which happened earlier, but never in this intensity) started overwhelming my body, almost leading to an orgasm, and I literally almost started "separating" from my body, like I'm about to fly up. I never felt anything this strong during meditating. However, I had to stop because my heart was pounding very hard at that moment and it was becoming scary.
Alright, so now, after I stopped, my arms and legs were numb for like 10 minutes, waves of heat and excitement rushed through my body. I felt like I could do absolutely anything, so I exercised to the point where my muscles were burning. All of this was in the evening, so when I went to sleep, this hyperactivity settled and turned to calm pleasure. I felt safe, tucked in, like I possess some knowledge others do not, nothing could touch me or worry me... but it gradually turned to something that felt almost like a panic attack.
Waves of something that felt like adrenaline rising from the bottom of my stomach (I'm not sure really) became much less satisfactory, more intensive, my heart was pounding again and there was this numbness/jerking in my arms and legs again, as if I can't control them. This scared me very much, but eventually I managed to calm down and fall asleep.
The next day, this feeling is still present, but once again it turned into something pleasurable. I felt inspired, calm and changed. Changed would be the right word. Perhaps changed would be the right word. I don't know if this is all inside of my head, but it's like I can feel the energy "flowing" through my body everytime I just pause and listen to it. All of this happened two days ago. Could somebody tell me what excatly would all of this mean? I'm confused about it and don't really know whether it would be dangerous to go on with meditating in this situation, if it could lead me to something that is too much for me to take at this point. Sorry for long post and thanks very much.