Hello, thank you for allowing me to post here.
I want to warn you up front that some of the things I'm about to describe are probably spoilers for spiritual development. If you want to discover everything naturally DO NOT READ THIS POST!
My situation is kind of odd. I'm having experiences beyond anything I've ever heard of. I want to say so many things about them that I don't know where to start so pardon me if this comes out disorganized and jumbled. One thing that I'd really like to express clearly is that I didn't do this to find God or be holy. I was bored, depressed, and decided to give Buddhism a try before giving up on life and requesting euthanasia. So I never took any of this seriously, yet it has suddenly become beyond my ability to describe.
The other week I had an "I am Buddha" moment. I had it while standing on a bridge over muddy water, after touching the Earth and having a random passing woman bow to me and identify me as a Buddha. I was playing the Yamantaka mantra, in Tibetan, on my pocket bluetooth speaker and she said to me, out of nowhere, "I think I just defeated death". I told her she probably had.
A few weeks later I'm reading about Vajrayana and I read about how this specific series of events is part of the signs that someone is becoming a Buddha. I'd never consciously read it before. I figure I have become awakened to the eternal dream and now the dream is rewriting itself to suit my expectations.
I really don't understand what Enlightenment is, but I think I'm able to just give it to people now. The last two people I've sat down with and explained everything to, both conversations went the same way:
Me: So apparently I'm Buddha or becoming Buddha or something. I think I can simply give people Enlightenment now.
Them: Oh, sure you can. (Laughs)
Me: (Explains the dream, explains that when the dreamer becomes aware of the dream they become aware of their Buddha-nature, explains how to achieve a state of Grace, etc)
And then they start apologizing and saying weird stuff like "I thought you were just some idiot, I'm sorry" and "I can't keep looking at you, you're shining with light". So I guess I'm giving them something but I don't know that it's Enlightenment because I don't belong to any spiritual/mystic groups, except this one. So I haven't been able to ask anyone what the heck was going on.
I probably have a dozen things to ask but I'll stop there for now. Anyone else having or had experiences like this?