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Matthew

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #75 on: September 09, 2015, 07:24:26 AM »
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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #76 on: September 14, 2015, 04:20:24 AM »
Thanks matthew for the suggestion. I will try that. I will post here weekly, regardless of whether I meditate or not, to keep myself accountable.

9/7/2015
Didnt meditate

9/8/215
Initially it was good, then I dozed off.

9/9/2015
didnt meditate

9/10/2015
meditated, but forgot to write down

9/11/2015
Didnt meditate

9/12/2015
Didnt meditate.

Matthew

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #77 on: September 14, 2015, 06:21:18 PM »
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9/8/215
Initially it was good, then I dozed off.

Sounds like you need sleep not mediation :D
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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #78 on: September 20, 2015, 07:51:15 PM »
You are right Matthew, I got good sleep this week, but wasnt able to maintain practice. I kindof find that if I am meditating regularly, my self-control improves quite dramatically, which helps me get enough sleep, work properly. Then I get to the extreme self-control where I work myself to death, and become extremely focused. I dont get sleep and get burnt out.

I guess I am only learning the effects of these things.

9/14/2015
meditated for 20 min

9/15/2015
didnt

9/16/2015
didnt

9/17/2015
didnt

9/18/2015
didnt

9/19/2015
didnt

9/20/2015
meditated for 20 min

I have to start small again. I will start 10 mins a day and build up again.

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #79 on: September 22, 2015, 08:12:13 PM »
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I have to start small again. I will start 10 mins a day and build up again.

I succeeded to put a regular meditation practice in my life by doing this :
- First week : 2min 2x/day (no more, no less)
- 2 week : 5min 2x/day
- 3 week : 10min 2x/day
- 4 week : 15min 2x/day
...

Maybe you should try this :)
« Last Edit: September 22, 2015, 08:20:38 PM by 2cdod »

Matthew

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #80 on: September 22, 2015, 10:36:33 PM »
You are right Matthew, I got good sleep this week, but wasnt able to maintain practice. I kindof find that if I am meditating regularly, my self-control improves quite dramatically, which helps me get enough sleep, work properly. Then I get to the extreme self-control where I work myself to death, and become extremely focused. I dont get sleep and get burnt out.

It's good you see clearly this cycle alpha_wolf - the first step in undoing such habitual patterns. Keep on trucking my friend.

Warmly,

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #81 on: September 29, 2015, 04:19:06 AM »
9/21/2015
didnt meditate

9/22/2015
10 min meditation

9/23/2015
Meditated, forgot to write down

9/24/2015
didnt meditate

9/25/2015
did 10 min meditation

9/26/2015
Did 10 min meditation

9/27/2015
Meditated for 10 min

Better than last week. I think the thought of doing a 45 min meditation was way too much for me, I will gradually increase it. I have to make it a habit like last time. Right after waking up.

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #82 on: September 29, 2015, 04:20:44 AM »
Thanks for your wishes, Matthew.. Journaling and writing has definitely helped me recognize these patterns..

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #83 on: October 01, 2015, 02:37:52 PM »
You put more effort in your journal than in your meditation. I find this topic really strange :) Mate, give a try to the method I told if you wish, I hope you will go throughout your habitual pattern.

For me, you just can't sustain a meditative practice effort if you don't notice benefits. Do you notice benefits from doing 10 min a week? Let go of the idea of meditating for long periods. Concentrate first at bringing an habit of sitting no matter the time, but every f**king days, with no effort (a few minutes). After that, increase the time slooowly, the increase of meditative time will not be noticed if you increase steadily, then in a fews weeks you will meditate enought to start recolting benefits!

I just want to help and don't want to be directive, English in not my mother language so I apology if I sound directive :)

Matthew

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #84 on: October 01, 2015, 04:06:35 PM »
2cdod,

Each is responsible for their own practice. If you are lucky enough to have beneficial Sangha closed with whom you can sit this will often be a help to maintain discipline. If not journalling can be a great help, a good reminder. It seems to me that by keeping his journal here alpha_wolf is finding his own middle ground: firstly, holding himself to account and taking responsibility for his practice, and secondly sharing the record with this Sangha.

I wonder why it troubles you?

Warmly,

Matthew
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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #85 on: October 01, 2015, 08:55:35 PM »
I'm sorry, for 4 years I didn't meditate everyday (but tried a lot of time as Wolf), whitch gave me any benefits. And now I sit every day and that's sooo great to my life (and so new) that I want everybody I care to sit every day to feel the benefits, benefits that weren't noticed at all until daily pratice. I know from reading and personal experience that a meditation that isn't daily isn't meditation. You can't just sit when you wish and hope for any results. I had to say it to Wolf because I feel that he fool himself thinking that. Strong determination as to be generated. I don't say that it's easy, but I feel that I had to be honest with him.

I agree that my posts are a bit rough or I don't know what, but the intension behind is pure, is for his benefit.
« Last Edit: October 01, 2015, 08:57:53 PM by 2cdod »

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #86 on: October 02, 2015, 01:36:17 AM »
2cdod,

You are right about practice, you're posts are only rough in the sense that your English is not so fluent/fluid and you explained it's not your first language already. I think alpha_wolf is aware that daily practice is what pays off and like many has a real struggle to achieve it. Thank you for clarifying. I don't doubt the purity of intention: it sounded a little frustrated yet again that may be your English.

Warmly,

Matthew
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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #87 on: October 04, 2015, 11:30:56 PM »
9/28/2015
10 min meditation

9/29/2015
Did 10 min meditation.

9/30/2015
Did 10 min meditation.

10/1/2015
10 min meditation

10/2/2015
Didnt do meditation.

10/3/2015
10 min meditation

10/4/2015
5 min guided, 5 min unguided. I am realizing that what Matthew said earlier about silent vs guided meditation is also true. Sitting in silence has a lot of benefits, but when I do that too much, I tend to forget the basics of meditation. I guess there has to be a balance of instruction and silent meditation. Towards that, I started limiting the guided meditation to the first 5 minutes, to remind myself of the basic tenets, and then switching to unguided meditation. I am gradually increasing the time. I will increase the amount of time increase to 5 mins/2 weeks, till I get to 45 mins, and hold it there.

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #88 on: October 04, 2015, 11:32:29 PM »
Hii 2cdod,

I agree with your method of increasing meditation duration gradually. I did a similar thing when I started in the beginning, but didnt exactly do what you mentioned or as systematically. This time too, I am doing the same thing gradually increasing the duration. I do think think that meditating for 45 min (daily) or so has the most benefits. This is from advice from matthew and also from other websites etc.

I think last time, I increased the duration a bit too fast. So my plan is to increase the duration by 5 min every 2 weeks till I reach 45 min/day regularly, and hold it there.

For me, I have seen immense benefits from meditation, but its usually when I stop meditating daily that I start observing how much it was benefiting me. I started at 10 mins this time, because I had maintained a longer duration meditation practice on a daily basis earlier, and I knew I was going to be able to sustain that on a daily basis, most days. I dont try for perfection or 100% of the days, because thats impossible to do.

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #89 on: October 11, 2015, 07:58:12 PM »
10/5/2015

10/6/2015
10 min meditation

10/7/2015
10 min meditation

10/8/2015
10 min meditation

10/9/2015
10 min meditation

10/10/2015
Forgot to meditate, so made up for it on Sunday.

10/11/2015
20 min meditation

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #90 on: October 18, 2015, 10:36:07 PM »
10/12/2015
15 min meditation

10/13/2015
15 min meditation

10/14/2015
15 min meditation

10/15/2015
15 min meditation

10/16/2015
15 min meditation

10/17/2015
15 min meditation

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #91 on: November 02, 2015, 04:00:19 AM »
10/18/2015
15 min meditation

10/19/2015
15 min meditation

10/20/2015
15 min meditation

10/21/2015
15 min meditation

10/22/2015
15 min meditation

10/23/215
15 min meditation

10/24/2015
Didnt meditate

10/25/2015
Didnt meditate

10/26/2015
Didnt meditate

10/27/2015
Didnt meditate

10/28/2015
Didnt meditate

10/29/2015
Didnt meditate

10/30/2015
Didnt meditate

10/31/2015
Didnt meditate

11/1/2015
15 min meditation.

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #92 on: November 02, 2015, 04:03:13 AM »
It has been an interesting week. But I have been moving cross country. I dont think thats a good excuse not to meditate, but I havent meditated in the last 2 weeks or so. So starting again today.

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #93 on: November 03, 2015, 10:24:57 PM »
It may be a good reason.
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alpha_wolf

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #94 on: December 07, 2015, 04:28:09 AM »
11/2/2015
15 min meditation

11/3/2015
didnt meditate

11/4/2015
didnt meditate

11/5/2015
didnt meditate

11/6/2015
didnt meditate

11/7/2015
didnt meditate

11/8/2015
15 meditation

11/9/2015
didnt meditate

11/10/2015
didnt meditate

11/11/2015
didnt meditate

11/12/2015
15 min meditation

11/13/2015
didnt meditate

11/14/2015
didnt meditate

11/15/2015
15 min meditation

11/16/2015
didnt meditate

11/17/2015
didnt meditate

11/18/2015
didnt meditate

11/19/2015
didnt meditate

11/20/2015
15 min meditation

11/21/2015
15 min meditation

11/22/2015
didnt meditate

11/23/2015
15 min meditation

11/24/2015
didnt meditate

11/25/2015
15 min meditation

11/26/2015
15 min meditation

11/27/2015
15 min meditation

11/28/2015
didnt meditate

11/29/2015
didnt meditate

11/30/2015
15 min meditation

12/1/2015
15 min meditation

12/2/2015
15 min meditation

12/3/2015
15 min meditation

12/4/2015
15 min meditation

12/5/2015
15 min meditation

Its been a rocky month, like the last month. As I joined a new job, with no fixed apartment (living through Airbnb). I have been meditating in the car now. Cold showers and meditation first thing in the morning. Trying to make that thing a regular thing.

Matthew

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #95 on: December 08, 2015, 12:08:55 AM »
Well done. You're finding a way to keep going in adverse circumstances.
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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #96 on: December 10, 2015, 12:00:18 PM »
Do the Meditation

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« Reply #97 on: December 22, 2015, 12:54:44 AM »
12/6/2015
15 min meditation

12/7/2015
15 min meditation

12/8/2015
15 min meditation

12/9/2015
15 min meditation

12/10/2015
15 min meditation

12/11/2015
15 min meditation

12/12/2015
didnt record but probably did meditate

12/13/2015
didnt record but probably did meditate

12/14/2015
15 min meditation

12/15/2015
15 min meditation

12/16/2015
15 min meditation

12/17/2015
15 min meditation

12/18/2015
15 min meditation

12/19/2015
15 min meditaiton

12/20/2015
15 min meditaiton

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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #98 on: December 22, 2015, 02:55:25 AM »
Its been a rocky month, like the last month. As I joined a new job, with no fixed apartment (living through Airbnb). I have been meditating in the car now. Cold showers and meditation first thing in the morning. Trying to make that thing a regular thing.

Wow that`s inspiring! You remind me of a (also very inspiring) friend who, during studies, lived in his car, travelled, lived in 10m² with a girl (holy cow) and whatelse not he done..

Keep up the work, I believe your meditation routine will get as "tough" and solid as your daily life routine if you really want to :D
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Re: Meditation journal
« Reply #99 on: December 29, 2015, 04:01:31 AM »
12/21/2015
15 min meditation and cold showers

12/22/2015
didnt meditate

12/23/2015
15 min meditation and cold showers

12/24/2015
didnt meditate

12/25/2015
15 min meditation and cold showers

12/26/2015
15 min meditation and cold showers

12/27/2015
15 min meditation and cold showers

12/28/2015
15 min meditation and cold showers

Traveling again. But was able to do my meditation. Thank you matthew, attachless and zoya for the encouragement. Its becoming easy to keep the routing up even in adverse circumstances. I just have to remind myself how beneficial it is to continue the routine everyday, even if circumstances are not ideal. Most of the past week, I was meditating in hotel toilets, starbucks toilets etc.

 

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