I don't seek happiness, I just seek control.
.... If I "force" a meditation "high" through rigorous and controlled breathing, I eventually get there but like I said, it feels forced and kind of defeats the whole purpose of the practice. If, however, I observe my breath without trying to control it in any way, which is something I think I have now mastered, the whole process of meditation becomes slower, more relaxed and the eventual "high" is induced in a very natural and involuntary way, just a lot stronger.This "high" is none other than the racing heart, spinning head and vibrating feeling I keep talking about. A feeling of imminent departure from the body during the "high" is very common too....In fact, my heart starts to beat slightly faster the moment I sit down (or lay down) and begin to relax. Oddly enough, this isn't just in meditation but has recently been happening to me while doing other relaxed things, like prayer rituals and stuff. In this regard, meditation has had a clear effect on the way my brain reacts to relaxation and focusing.Now what exactly is happening there? ... What am I doing to my brain when I'm meditating?...
For a while in my practice I would experience something that sounds similar to your experience....Perhaps even the ego being fearful and protective.
You should find greater ease over time ...
It sounds like you might be experiencing Astral Projection. ...When it comes to what's occurring in your brain, your mind will automatically compensate with hallucinations and random thoughts to "entertain" itself if it doesn't have any other sensory info to process.
I agree that my two experiences of astral projection, one as a child and one as an adult whilst meditating, are a product of my mind. ...For me the danger is treating such experiences as something to 'go after' using different techniques, as this would take your focus away from meditation and the path.
Reification is making something real, bringing something into being, or making something concrete.